Friday, April 29, 2011

10 Month's Post-Op

10 month's have passed since surgery, and 160 lbs have come off! Hallelujah!!! I lost 10 lbs in the past month, which I was excited about! Things are going well.

I continue to go to counseling every week and am learning SO very much about the mental aspect of all this. This past week my counselor had me write out the pros & cons of 'Eating Any Food, Any Amount, Any Time'. Guess what? There aren't that many pros...go figure. And believe me, I tried to think of some. My counselor told me to pull the list out every time I ate this week to remind myself of the HUGE cons side of the list, which will help me to make more appropriate choices.


I also have a great friend who is serving as an accountability partner now, at the suggestion of my counselor. And at my accountability partner's suggestion, after discussing it with my counselor, and thinking about it for awhile now, I'm going to start a bible study called First Place 4 Health. I have orientation for it this Sunday and am looking forward to starting it May 12th. This will be yet another way to encourage me on this journey and hold be accountable. I'm very excited!

After looking at these 10 month post-op pics I've realized I need new picture clothes. These baggy things are not doing me any justice. I look bigger than I think I actually am. I think I need to obtain some new threads before my 11 month photos. ;)

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Who?!?!?!

My friend Elizabeth sent me this picture yesterday with the note "I came across this picture and I don't recognize either of these people. :) " This picture was taken on May 29, 2010. This was just a few days before my surgery pre-op appt where I weighed my very highest. She didn't recognize her son because he's nearly a year older and looks more like a little boy than a baby now. And me...well, that was a 150 + lbs heavier.


Here I am yesterday at work with my fellow DSer, Deb. Thank God for miracles in my life!!! Thank you for going first Deb so that I could follow years later and have a smooth surgery and recovery, since they worked out all the kinks after you! ;-)

Thursday, April 7, 2011

9 Months Post-Op

I finally took my 9 Month Post-Op photos tonight. 9 months was March 28th, but I just hadn't taken the time to take them. I did weigh myself on March 29th and my total weight loss so far is 150 pounds!!!! Yay!!!! I lost 11 lbs in the last month, which really made me happy, considering I had only maintained the month before.

I finally made it to my surgeon's office on March 8th for my six month check-up, which was really 8 months! I had done blood work back in January to check all my vitamin levels, so I got the results of those at my appointment. They check a total of 16 things each time I have my blood drawn; CBC, CMP, Iron, TIBC, B-12, 25-OH Vitamin D, PTH (Intact) and Without CA+, Lipid Profile, HG A1C, TSH, HIV, IGG H. Pylori Antibody Titer, Vitamin A, Vitamin E, Zinc, and Transferrin. If you know what any of that means, let me know! lol! All I know is they take vial after vial of blood! Thankfully most of my blood work was good. I hadn't been measuring any of the stuff I was eating or drinking so it was hard to report back about how much protein, water, and fat I'd been getting. I was told to increase my protein since my levels were low normal, get structured activity, and stop the sweets, pasta, and breads since my triglycerides were elevated.

I've also started seeing a counselor, which is going really well. I've added a lot of structure to my life, including journaling what I eat so I know how much protein, fat, carbs, water, and exercise I'm getting. I wasn't too excited about the journaling suggestion from the counselor and even resisted at first, but am doing much better now. Counseling is helping me to begin to change my way of thinking and concept of myself. In short it's great and I recommend it to everyone.





So I look lop-sided, as a normally do when I take these back shots, however, I think the back fat is FINALLY starting to go down. I glanced in the mirror this morning when I was getting ready and I to believe the back rolls have started shrinking! Yay! It's about time! Ha!

Sunday, April 3, 2011

Grocery Shopping

These were the contents of my shopping cart Saturday afternoon. I had hardly anything at home so it was a must to get some groceries. I'm trying to stick to my eating plan and watch my carbs. I think I turned every item over to check the carbs before it went into the basket and lots of things were rejected. It was the hardest thing ever! Ha! I had to pretty much run past the Easter aisle because the Cadbury eggs and M&M's were calling my name pretty loudly, screaming actually. I kept looking at my basket and thought "It's almost sickeningly good & healthy." Ha! As you can tell I had to force myself to shop like this. But I did it and was super happy afterward!


I had to share this find. I drink water all day, however I rarely drink it plain. I have to add flavors to it. Before I went to the store I saw a commercial for this new water enhancer. It's a liquid add-in instead of powder. I just had to dry it out. I was glad to see there was a display at Kroger. It was very picked over, but I managed to get a fruit punch and sweet tea. I was very excited about the sweet tea since I'm pretty much addicted to sweet tea, but it doesn't really fit in too well with being healthy and bringing those pesky triglycerides down, so now I can have it with 0 g sugar & 0 g carbs. Yay! I've already used them quite a bit since yesterday and I definitely recommend them.

Friday, April 1, 2011

I'm walking 60 miles to help end breast cancer forever!!!

Did the headline shock you? It doesn't really sound like me, does it? 150 lbs ago it was not me. It physically couldn't have been. But now, now I'm taking on all kinds of challenges and this one...well this one means the world to me.

A year ago today my mom was diagnosed with cancer again for the third time. It was the worst day of my life. It was all too ironic that it fell on April Fool's Day. I had spent the night in the hospital with mom as we awaited test results for what we knew might be cancer again, although we were hoping it was some type of infection. I'll never forget that day. I wish I could. I still remember the doctor's face like it was yesterday. I can't explain the feeling of getting that news that the breast cancer was back and had spread. It's the helpless, out of control feeling. You know those tv shows where the main character is up above watching what is happening to them down below? Yeah, kind of like that.

Fast forward to today, a year later. Mom took her 14th chemo today and her tumor marker has gone down to 55 from the 1800 it was at a year ago. Destination tumor marker is between 0 - 37. We're nearly there!!!! God is a mighty, mighty God.


This is the reason my sister & I have taken on an incredible challenge. November 4-6, 2011 we will walk 60 miles to help end breast cancer forever. We will join together with thousands of other women and men as part of the Susan G. Komen 3-Day for the Cure.

No one should have to go through what we have seen our mom go through. No one should have to have a double mastectomy, take radiation that burns their skin, or take chemotherapy that causes them to lose their hair and feel ill. She had NO choice in getting breast cancer three times. We are choosing to walk 60 miles to honor her, as well as the many other women and men fighting and SURVIVING this terrible disease. We also walk in remembrance of those we have lost. We will do all we can not to let breast cancer affect anyone else's future. We are choosing to fight back. We are challenging ourselves to accomplish more than we ever thought possible.

We've agreed to raise at least $2,300 in donations and need your help. I would be honored if you'd consider making a donation to this cause. Please know you can donate any amount no contribution is too small!

You can donate online at The3Day.org. Just click on "Donate" and search for my personal fundraising page. You can also fill out the enclosed donation form and mail it to the address on the form. You can also call 800-996-3DAY to donate over the phone.

Net proceeds from the 3-Day for the Cure are invested in community-based breast health programs and breast cancer research. The research funded focuses on decreasing breast cancer incidence and mortality in the next decade.


Somewhere in the world, a woman dies from breast cancer every 69 seconds. Breast cancer is the most frequently diagnosed cancer, and is the leading cause of death among women worldwide. The majority of women with breast cancer have no known significant family history or other known risk factors. Breast cancer knows no boundaries be it age, gender, socio-economic status or geographic location. I'm walking in the 3-Day because everyone deserves a lifetime.

Thank you in advance for your generosity and for helping end breast cancer forever.

Also, ask your employer if they will double your donation through a matching gift program! Many companies will!

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Monday, March 28, 2011

St. Patty's - Then & Now

What a difference a year makes!

I have the same shirt on in both photos. Last year I was very self-conscious in it. I even wore a tank-top under it so it would hang out the bottom and hopefully cover up my big stomach a little more.

I loved the shirt this year! It was big and was a wonderful feeling! I wasn't self-conscious in it at all! I even enjoyed having pictures taken.

A few weeks ago my friend gave me the photo from last year after she had taken it off a bulletin board background she still had. I taped it up in my cubicle and look at it daily. It's just amazing to me. It's a TERRIFIC reminder of why I had the DS surgery!

Monday, February 28, 2011

Disappointed...in myself.‏

Ugh. Worst. Mood.

I weighed myself this morning, as it’s been 8 months today since I had my surgery. I haven’t lost any weight in the last month. No, I haven’t gained, BUT I HAVEN’T LOST. I’m so mad. And guess what? There is NO ONE to blame but myself! I REALLY hate it when that is the case! I HATE to be wrong! Really hate it. Just ask my family. Growing up it was ALWAYS someone else’s fault, mostly my younger sisters’. I do not like to lose! Lol! But apparently it’s time to grow up and take responsibility. Ugh again. What’s that about?!

I previously blogged about how I had really slacked since the holidays, had been eating a lot of carbs, drinking a lots of sweet tea, and eating a lot of chocolate. In that post I said that I was quitting all those things. I did quit them…for a day or two. Then it was right back on the unhealthy eating bandwagon. Ugh. And I knew what I was doing. I KNEW I didn’t need to order sweat tea. I KNEW I didn’t need to eat all that pizza and burgers, but I did anyway. In the past I could screw up with my eating and still have a good weight loss for the month. I was pretty much counting on that to continue. But ya know what, even when you’ve had weight loss surgery it is still no “easy fix” and you still have to work at it. I’m being hit in the face with that today. Besides not losing ANY weight (yeah, I’m bitter) I’ve been feeling gross too. You’d think one would STOP doing the things that made them feel sluggish and gross. Not so much when you are addicted to the thing, as I am. It’s been said the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results. Yup, I’m insane. And the thing is, I know better. I know what to do. I know to watch my portions, which I’ve let go lately because I can eat more than in the first few months after surgery. I still can’t eat like I previously did, but I need to reign it back in regardless. I know to not eat carbs, sugar, and I know I need to exercise. I know that doing the elliptical once in the last month WILL NOT CUT IT. I know these things, yet I still did whatever I wanted and failed myself.

So besides getting back on track with eating right and exercising, it’s time…it’s time to work on this mental thing that leads me back to sabotaging myself. I got the name of a well-liked counselor from a friend of mine WAY back in September and never called them. What’s worse is that I also lost the info. So today I have emailed my friend, admitting to never calling and losing the info, and asked for it again. I’m going to bite the bullet and call. I don’t have this mental part under control like I was trying to trick myself into thinking. It’s time. I’ll continue to spiral out of control if I don’t reign it in. I’ll keep you updated as to how it goes!

I don’t need a pity party or condolences. I just need to do this. This is my one chance. They tell you with the DS surgery that you have 18 months to lose your excess weight, while your body is in the ketosis state. I’ve wasted this past month for sure, and other months could have been a bigger loss. It’s just time to stop being ridiculous. This is my life and I’m taking it back. I’m going to refresh my memory with the guide given me by my doctor’s office and GET BACK ON TRACK!

I almost didn’t take pictures today, I figured what’s the point, I look the same as last month when I weighed this same amount. Lol. But I did it anyway.

I also included these. I wore this skirt and top to church a few weeks ago. I hardly every wear skirts or dresses, much less ones that don’t come pretty far down my leg. I was totally self-conscious since I’m not used to wearing this, but I was elated that I COULD wear it. This was actually a hand-me-down from my sister. She didn’t want it anymore and I gladly accepted the size 20 outfit with open arms!
The same goes for this top I wore to work today. It’s a 1X, yes really, hand-me-down from my sis as well. I’ve never been so excited to wear other people’s clothes! Mostly because I’ve NEVER been able to wear other people’s clothes!

And last but not least I thought I’d share this AWESOME (to me) Non-Scale Victory. While at the mall this weekend I got a new battery in my watch. I hadn’t worn my watch since before surgery. Why? Because it was skin tight and SUPER uncomfortable. Look how big it is now!!! I love it! I’m going to wear it until it falls off! (Ignore my funky pink arm/hand.)


While I may not have lost weigh in the last month (still bitter at myself) I’ve had some pretty great non-scale victories. Thank you GOD for these victories, and for showing me the way when I stumble and am lost!